"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make straight your paths," (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Everyone who witnessed my accident said that it was violent, fast and nasty. Those around me were shocked at the impact that I had. As I fell, I tore gates out of the ice. Those gates were drilled into the course so they would not come out. My accident was so violent that I also tore out netting that is set up to keep skiers from hitting trees in case there is an accident. From what I heard it was one of the worst accidents race staff and coaches at Winter Park had seen.
As violent as the accident was, I felt nothing. All I remember was feeling the binding of my ski come loose and I heard a snap. I quickly turned to my right and immediately went head first into the ice. Although I was wearing a helmet, it did not protect my skull from fracturing. My mouth guard that stuck out on my helmet caused my neck to snap back. I went face forward and hit the ice on my temple.
I remember that very clearly and I also remember that it was so fast that it did not hurt. My accident was just a couple of seconds. It was just violent for a few seconds and I went unconscious. I woke up several minutes later to people surrounding me.
While lying on the cold, icy snow at 19 years old, I knew that I was going to die. No one told me that I was going to die. The ski patrol and my coaches actually told me to "Hang in there," and "I would be alright," but I knew that they were wrong. As I was listening to the patrol and my family and everyone around me saying that I would survive and be "Just fine," I knew they were just full of hope that I would make it and live. I was not going to survive and I was not going to make it off that race course alive.
The thought of dying did not scare me. I know it is really weird to say because usually people are scared to die. It is the fear of the unknown that we do not like and this is what often scares people about death. One minute we are having fun doing something we love and the next we are on the ground dying. We just never know when our time is up and this is why people get so nervous when thinking about their own deaths.
This is a sample from my new book called "When I Saw Heaven." If interested in purchasing either book, "Back Up On Skis," or "When I Saw Heaven," you can buy them at
I am also an author of several other books but I was very young (17) when I published them. I only recommend that you buy "Back Up On Skis" or "When I Saw Heaven."